The Accident that Changed my life

This was the third time in my life where I nearly faced death once again. I thought to myself, “I can’t go out because life is scary.”

Around 9:00AM on February 9th, 2018, I headed off to work. I was only a few minutes away from my exit when I noticed cars began to stop. I panicked because I was going 65 miles per hour (mph) and I couldn’t come to a complete stop in time. As I stepped on the brakes as hard as I could, I heard loud screeching noises. What I thought was my brake pads was the sound of a crash as I had been rear ended. Within seconds, I swerved into the left lane and my car flipped into the air. Within that very moment I thought, “I guess this is how I will die and if I make it out alive, if…. It’s not going to be good.”

 I saw the roads beneath me, I screamed, “JESUS!” as loud as I could.
 I cried my heart out to God.

As I landed, my car rolled on the freeway 3 times and left me upside down. I opened my eyes and noticed a piece of glass that pierced through my head. Blood was dripping… At the time, I was concerned with being was stuck and my head bleeding. I couldn’t take off my seat belt. The scene was so tragic that people would not come near the car (I think they were afraid of what they could find inside… I am not sure). As I waited for the ambulance to arrive, I prayed. I prayed to God and asked him to please help me take my seatbelt off so I could crawl out of my window. At the end of the prayer, I was able to take the seatbelt off and crawled out the window. 

I grabbed a sweater and placed it on my head to try to stop the bleeding. I saw that people started to run towards me. A guy ran across the freeway with his friend and held me. He held me in his arms until the ambulance came. Another woman helped me stayed awake and alert by asking me questions. 

 Every part of me felt weak, I wanted to stay asleep.

With the holy spirit, I sang. I prayed in tongues for healing because I was afraid to discover damage on my brain or body. It was one of the scariest moments of my life. Someone was kind and found my phone. Before the ambulance took me away to the hospital, I was able to take a quick photo of my car for insurance purposes. Doctors and nurses were examining my body to make sure everything was okay. I continued to pray and asked others to pray for me as I waited for the results from my x-ray scans. 

            The doctor came in shocked. Results showed that there wasn’t a broken bone on my body, and everything looked well with my head scan. I was relieved and thankful to God. I was discharged the same day and made it home. After that day, my life has never been the same. I was filled with love from friends and strangers. People came to visit and dropped me off flowers, gifts, food, and desserts. It was a beautiful thing to be surrounded by angels.

Eventually, I started going through phases of fear. This was the third time in my life where I nearly faced death once again. I was afraid to live. I thought to myself, “I can’t even go out because life is scary.” Overtime, I became sad and angry. A few days later, I started to feel nauseating back pain from the accident. 

 I was so upset and felt like there was no purpose to live.
A part of me was angry at God.
But I have learned that even in my pain to seek God.

I was too upset to pray. So, I played worship music and closed my eyes. I had flashbacks of my accident. I saw my car rollover and there was a large angel who placed his hands on me and pushed me towards my seat. With his feet, he pushed away the glass. Then, I had another vision. I was in paradise with Jesus as a 2-year-old. Jesus had me in his arms and rocked me as the car rolled.

These visions overwhelmed me with peace and the feelings of sadness and anger went away. I asked God, “Why was the glass the only thing that went through my head?” A few days later my prayers were answered. Someone told me that if the glass had not gone through my head, I would have become brain dead or instantly died. It was the glass going through my head that helped release the pressure in my head. I was amazed to learn how God saved me. 

Today, I am so grateful to be alive! I have learned to not take life for granted because in a matter of seconds, we can lose it. The lessons that I learned from my accident was to let go of control, enjoy life, laugh more, love more, be present, Jesus is real, and tomorrow is not guaranteed. 

 I did not die that day on February 9th, 2018.
I came to life.

Psalm 34

I will extol the Lord at all times;
    his praise will always be on my lips.
I will glory in the Lord;
    let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
Glorify the Lord with me;
    let us exalt his name together.

I sought the Lord, and he answered me;
    he delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant;
    their faces are never covered with shame.
This poor man called, and the Lord heard him;
    he saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him,
    and he delivers them.

Taste and see that the Lord is good;
    blessed is the one who takes refuge in him.
Fear the Lord, you his holy people,
    for those who fear him lack nothing.
10 The lions may grow weak and hungry,
    but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing.
11 Come, my children, listen to me;
    I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
12 Whoever of you loves life
    and desires to see many good days,
13 keep your tongue from evil
    and your lips from telling lies.
14 Turn from evil and do good;
    seek peace and pursue it.

15 The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
    and his ears are attentive to their cry;
16 but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
    to blot out their name from the earth.

17 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them;
    he delivers them from all their troubles.
18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
    and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

19 The righteous person may have many troubles,
    but the Lord delivers him from them all;
20 he protects all his bones,
    not one of them will be broken.

21 Evil will slay the wicked;
    the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
22 The Lord will rescue his servants;
    no one who takes refuge in him will be condemned.

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