Hollywood did not give me what God has given me

When I was little, I used to love watching Mexican soap operas. I realized that the actresses were beautiful and desired. I wanted to be just like them. As I got older, the desire to be known and seen only grew stronger. When I was 18 years old, I moved to Hollywood to pursue a career as an actress and a model. I did pretty well and landed my own tv show named “Dayana Grace.” I started to receive new likes, followers, attention, and so much more, but it wasn’t enough. Something was missing. I felt empty even though I had everything I thought I wanted. Suddenly all of this began to take me into a place of despair, and I knew something had to change.
Growing up, I knew enough about Jesus to know he was real, but I didn’t know him nor trust him due to some things that happened to me. I did want a relationship with him, but I wanted it to be based on my conditions. I mainly only talked to him growing up when I needed something. As I entered into despair, I realized that I could either keep living in my fantasy world for the rest of my life, or I could invite Jesus into my heart. I wanted something tangible that would last, and somehow somewhere deep within me, I knew that Jesus was the answer. Over five years ago, I accepted by faith Jesus into my heart. Life isn’t the same anymore. I don’t have as many followers, likes, or attention, and I am okay with that because I am finally happy. God has blessed me beyond anything I could have ever imagined. Within five years, God has given me more treasures than Hollywood ever could have. I have traveled for ministry to South Africa(twice), Dubai, and Mexico. I have shared my testimony on the radio, television, and events. I married an amazing, Godly man. God healed my relationship with my parents. And His goodness only continues. If I had to do this all over again, I wouldn’t hesitate to give my life to Jesus. If anything, I would run to Him. The world will never be able to satisfy what only Jesus can fulfill. 

I am not your God

Once upon a time, there was girl who felt invisible to the world, especially amongst her parents. Her desires as a child to be seen grew. Her soul yearned to hear the words “I see you!” She left her innocence to chase fame and riches hoping to be seen and for the world to worship her. She thought “Oh, world how shall I get you to praise me?” 

She was led astray as she saw the Maxim girls receive a lot of praise. She thought becoming a sex symbol was the symbol. She felt seen, desired, and admired. She craved more and headed to Hollywood. But in the back of her mind, she knew that the praise would disappear sooner or later. 

What is the point of being like God when she does not know God? The fame, the men, the praise… eventually it was unfulfilling. Dayana, fell on her knees and surrendered her throne to know the real God. The God who created the heavens and the earth.

The fall of humanity is when one has tried to be like God. There is no amount of wisdom or knowledge that can make one be God. Many have tried to be like him. Yet they fail and realize they need a Savior. One example is Eve, she lived a graceful life in Eden. In time, she chose to ignore God and ate the apple to be like God. Her choice affected both her, her husband, and future generations. She did not become like God if anything she witnessed the wages of sin.

For so long, Dayana, tried to be like God. She wanted to be the savior of many. She carried the burden of responsibility. Recently, she realized that she can’t be the savior because she might be interfering with God’s will for their life. 

She has learned to not get in the way of being a savior unless the Holy Spirit leads her to help. 

I have written all of this to remind myself and others that we are not God. There is only one God. He is strong enough to handle our burdens and be our savior. He is the way, the truth, and life. 

Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6

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