|I can be easily triggered and hurt because of things that can look similar to my past or assumption. When I am hurt, I don’t feel like giving my pain or emotions to God; instead, I feel like confronting the person or situation that hurt me. There is a need to do so because, for so long, I have fought for me. For years I have stood up for me because, for so long, it felt that people would grab me and push me to the floor and leave me there. I went from being a kind girl to wanting to be mouthy and stand up for me; now that I am a devoted Christian, I still have those moments where I want to stand up for me. However, as hard as it can sometimes be, I am learning to give God my pain and let him fight my battles. The hardest part for me is to remain silent and allow God to become my justice. However, I need to remind myself that God can fight my battles better than I can.|
When it feels like people push you down and you feel alone, remember that you are not. God is with you when you are down and when you are up. Let him be with you in all moments and surrender to him. Jesus loves you!
I usually clean my bathroom on Saturday or Sunday. The toilet calls for help in less than a week, and if I let it go on longer without being clean, it looks gross. As I was about to clean it today, I realized how we tend to be like a toilet; if Jesus doesn’t come to cleanse us, we will remain dirty. Sin does that to one; it turns us into something messy, and we need Jesus to regularly come and cleanse us through his word, affirmation, love, and presence. Cleaning the toilet happens to be my favorite thing to do. It has been a reminder over the years that no matter what, I must remain humble. My humility comes from knowing that I need a savior to come and cleanse me always.
Allow Jesus to come and cleanse you from any impurities. Remain clean and reliant upon God in all of your ways.
Jesus loves you!
C a p a b l e
So often in life we stop ourselves from doing something great because we don’t believe deep within, we are capable.
What if you had the help to do something great? Would you believe? Would you have the courage in your heart to do what God is calling you to do?
Lately, I have been hearing this, “On the other side of your obedience is other people’s blessings.” I want to be obedient; firstly to bless God and secondly to be a part of seeing other’s blessed. It can be so hard when I start doubting myself and questioning my capabilities.
God is the creator of heaven and earth. He is the One that fearfully and wonderfully knitted us together in our mother’s womb. How is it that we often doubt the one who breathed life into our existence?
As I am writing this, the Holy Spirit reminded me of Moses. My husband and I are currently reading Exodus and in Exodus 4, we see God is asking Moses to do something. Moses doesn’t believe he is capable of doing so, even though God said he would help him. So God sets his eyes on someone who is already walking in how He made them.
Moses 4:10-16 10 Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”11 The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord?12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”13 But Moses said, “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.”14 Then the Lord’s anger burned against Moses and he said, “What about your brother, Aaron the Levite? I know he can speak well. He is already on his way to meet you, and he will be glad to see you. 15 You shall speak to him and put words in his mouth; I will help both of you speak and will teach you what to do. 16 He will speak to the people for you, and it will be as if he were your mouth and as if you were God to him. 17 But take this staff in your hand so you can perform the signs with it.”
If Moses had chosen to believe God, he would have walked in full obedience even in fear. He would have had the blessing of experiencing that it wasn’t his full capability that allowed him to speak and be understood, but with God’s help, he would have been capable of speaking and getting the message across. In Exodus, as we continue reading, we continue to experience God’s grace over Moses. He uses him as a leader with his brother’s (Aaron) support.
I still wonder what could have happened if Moses would had chosen to trust God with his speech, and would had spoken, fully reliant on God.These are just my thoughts, but we know that God is merciful and no one can stop His plan.
God comes through for us when we rely on him…
I remember during my first mission trip to South Africa ,I had the blessing of sharing my testimony several times. Whenever I share my testimony, I prepare and ask for God’s help to know what else He wants me to share. This helps me prepare. During this particular trip, I started to feel guilt, I wanted others to share and to feel included. I did not want them to think that I was the only one doing the talking, so I asked if they would like to do a speech. I assured them that I would share my thoughts at the end if there was time but I was happy to sit back and listen to other people. I felt God tell me not to prepare my speech for this time and I listened.
The time came, and it was time for me to share. I said “God but I didn’t prepare, I don’t even know what to say”… I felt in my heart that I needed to trust God, and wait for him to give me the words, so that’s what I did. As I waited on God, I prayed before speaking and I felt something powerful came over me… I would definitely say my experience was like in Ezekiel 11:5
“Then the Spirit of the LORD came on me, and he told me to say: “This is what the LORD says: That is what you are saying, you leaders in Israel, but I know what is going through your mind.”
As I began to speak, I saw the emotion on people’s faces and tears fell from their eyes.. I can’t take credit for what God did that day but I know He did something beautiful in those peoples’ lives. Afterwards I was reminded that I am not capable because of how great I am, but I am capable because God is my guide. He is there when I need him the most, when I doubt my capability.
I write all of this to encourage you to step out in faith, trust that if God is calling you, do something and do it knowing you can rely on Him..
God equips the incapable to become capable. –Dayana Shiplett