Before she was born, she felt her father’s rejection from the womb. He told my mother to abort her. Regardless of her father’s rejection, her mother chose to keep her. On August 27th, 1993, Dayana took her first breath on this earth.
Growing up, she was known as an odd child. At the age of 7 she was molested by her baby-sitter’s son. From then on, she became a magnet for those who needed a body to use sexually. Even girls and elder women started to sexually touch her. To her surprise, her own uncle kissed her by mouth several times. Even in her own family, she was unsafe. As she got older, she felt dirty and used. She thought all she was good for was her body.
She didn’t have a sense of identity. Her relationships with men was the opposite of love and affection. She allowed men to use her and abuse her. From one man onto the next, she lived a broken life. She was on the search for identity and love. As she reached her glamourized life in Hollywood, the filthy rags remained hidden. Although she felt like someone and was seen by the world, those filthy rags were still there. When she turned 21, she realized that she was only chasing after the wind of fantasies. Eventually she hit a breaking point and surrendered her life to Jesus.
At a young age she always knew God was real. It was something she couldn’t explain but the feeling was so near to her. However, with all the trauma she experienced it made her become angry at God and pushed him away as much as she could. She was afraid of him because she could not understand him nor explain him. She knew, God and Satan constantly battled over her. In 2015, Dayana decided to let God win and surrendered her glamourized life in Hollywood to find God and who he claimed to be.
She moved to San Diego to live on her own. A life that was fully devoted to God. This was the first time in her life she had taken a major step of faith. She wanted to see if God would show up for her. He did. He changed her life for better. She gave God her filthy rags, her shame, and painful past. God began to mold her from the inside out. She exchanged her dirty dress for the reminder that she is pure. God sees her as white as snow. She exchanged her pain for God’s trust to redeem what was stolen from her. She exchanged her shame to see that she is the daughter of a King (God).
God transformed my life completely. I am no longer filthy but know I am royalty. I am dressed in white because He is my Father.
In a matter of 5 years this has been my redemption story:
- I am Pure!
- I am Unashamed!
- I am Forgiven!
- I am Loved!
- I am Seen!
- I am Clean!
- I am Accepted!
- I am not my past!
Even though my innocence was taken, God blessed me with a husband who was a virgin on my wedding night. My dad and I are best friends now. God has given me a platform to share my testimony all around the world, San Diego, Mexico, South Africa, Dubai, and the internet. I call this redemption! God has never failed me!
I will rejoice greatly in the LORD, My soul will exult in my God; For He has clothed me with garments of salvation, He has wrapped me with a robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom decks himself with a garland, And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
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